so... I had a revelation the other day. Sparked by James Christerson. We were chatting about anxiety... And he told me his definition of anxiety. In that definition, he mentioned some stuff about control. I don't like the idea being a control freak. However, I realized , that I am indeed a control freak in some sense. Basically, I feel like things should be under control. Not necessarily my control, but controlled in a way that I feel is good and a positive thing. The list of things I feel like should be controlled is kinda long. Some of these are minor, some are major.

Another core problem related to this "control problem" would be selfishness.

In the midst of all this, a verse kept being brought to my attention...

Philippians 4:6-7

"Do not fret or have anxiety about anything, but in every circumstance and in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, continue to make your wants known to God.

And God's peace shall be yours, that tranquil state of a soul assured of its salvation through Christ, and so fearing nothing from God and being content with its earthly lot of whatever sort that is, that peace which transcends all understanding shall garrison and mount guard over your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus."

I'm thinking about making this my verse for this season. Kinda like a theme song.

So... here's what I'm going to do:
1. Not be as selfish.
2. Not worry so much. (i.e., not desire as much control over a situation)

Ok. so, that list was dumb. I haven't a clue what I'm supposed to exactly. But I will be trying to live out this verse more.